Documenting my my life process.

Month: September 2012

Next Level Fitness

this is what i want my abs tolook like

Maybe with a little bit of dedication.

Monday weigh in 209.4

My ultimate goal is to get down to 190lbs.  At a 25 BMI the charts say I should be 185lbs, which to me is a sickly.  At 190 I’ll be 15 lbs above my high school weigh and I’ve very happy with that.

I was a solid 220lbs about 5 months ago, when  i started to get serious about working out and eating right.  11 lbs later I’ve plateaued.  I know what my problem is, “Weekends”.

During the weekends I eat like a f’n pig.

Day 19 Not Smoking

Today makes my 19th day without a cigarette.  It actually feels good.  I haven’t had the insatiable pangs for the smooth pain of a drag of a cigarette that I thought I was going to have.  I don’t even miss the oral fixation that smoking creates with the repeated gesture of putting a cigarette to my mouth.

I don’t feel superhuman or that I have the lung capacity of a whale now.  It just feels good not to be smoking cigarettes.  It feels good not to NEED a cigarette.  Now I realize that need is just artificial.

Why?  Why stop now?

The reasons are threefold.
1)  Financial.

Being a father, husband and a homeowner I am in dire need of Life Insurance.  If I die I don’t think my wife and child would be comfortable without my income.   Life insurance premiums for me as a non smoker are $25/month for a $750,000 policy, if I declare myself as a smoker my premium goes up to 150/month.  God Damn, I need to stop smoking.

2) Endurance.

I’ve been getting into endurance running.  I’ve heard through the grapevine that endurance running and smoking Newport box does not mix too well.

3)  My daughter is more aware

My daughter is about to turn 4, she’s very observant and sharp.  She knows something is up when mommy and daddy keep slipping to the side patio.  Eventually she’s going to figure out that I’m smoking cigarettes.  I just don’t feel like dealing with that.

I’m not going to front I would really like to smoke a cigarette.  My wife smokes making the temptation even stronger.


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