I’ve wanted to compete for a little while now.
I keep making up excuses as to why I wouldn’t compete. Not enough time, not wanting to be injured . . . and blah blah blah.
Basically it all boils down to fear. Fear I must confront.
Getting comfortable with the uncomfortable is part of the training process and competing is just one step.
When, will I step up to the challenge. This is a first quarter 2016 goal right now. First step is to say it right.
I’m going to compete. There I did it. Now to sign up for my first tournament.
Here it is. Training in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu has shaken my belief in my original art American Kenpo Karate.
Ok, there you have it. I’ve said it.
Long, long time ago in a city far, far away in 2000 I received my black belt in Ed Parker’s American Kenpo in Towson MD from Professor Jim Fredrick. I just knew in my mind that I was learning the most effective form of self defense that there was.
I felt confident that I could defend myself against someone trying to do me harm.
Or did I? Did I really think I could pull the correct technique from my repertoire and execute it. Did I really think that if I punched the guy there, or there he would really react this way or that way. Did I really think that if I kicked him in the groin he would immediately double over in pain.
You see these are the assumptions you have to make in the Kenpo world. Its a world where you don’t have to test the out come, or the tests involve predetermined results.
Now 15 years later, I’ve been taking BJJ for the past two years, it has shaken my belief in Kenpo. Bjj just feels more effective. You learn a technique in class then you immediately try in in live training. This is where the rubber meets the road.
I have to rethink all the hours I’ve trained doing techniques in the air. Will that be useful to me at all?
Probably not, but I still have a love for American Kenpo.
In reality being 40 I only have so much time left to keep training. I feel as if every joint and muscle has a time limit, and I feel that I would rather burn my miles rolling with BJJ.