Yesterday I was walking to work, I noticed the same 5 people I had saw walking to work the day before.
Same as it ever was.
When I got to my building I saw the same security guard, that is there every day.
Same as it ever was.
Walking down the hall, there she was the same woman I pass by and don’t know her name for the past 7 years.
Then I stopped looked around and thought.
How did I get here. Is it going to be like this tomorrow also.
I know I should be content. It almost feels like the world is standing still. Maybe I need a vacation but that’s not how I feel. I feel like I need a life. Do something to know I’m alive, maybe join the military, maybe become a firefighter. The only problem is that these golden handcuffs, I feel like I’m trapped by my job, my car, my house.
All I can think about is the song Once In a Lifetime by the Talking Heads. I guess I should just appreciate everything I have but its not about material things its more about living life, traveling, experiencing. Maybe this is what happens when you insulate yourself from struggle.
Is this the reward I get from always doing the “right” thing. You know School, Job, Wife, Children. Excuse me I just wanted to say a few things to help me sort this out.
